I have so many ideas for pictures, but what pisses meoff is that my cam doesnt work. Its all fucked up! the focus is horrible and i just cant work with the damn pice of shit!!!

Sorry i just can take it anymore, there are so many things that just upset me so much and i never say shit you know. And its just like i take it all on the things i love like my cam for instance

Im just sad and bored i guess. And you know that always = depression (i think i spelled it wrong, but i dont care i feel stupid tho). Things are ok with Robby and me. Sometimes i just feel like he is sick of me. I think im wrong about that but who knows i hope i am. I love him and i dont want us to fall apart like every sad cuples out there.

Work is getting harder. Specially cause of christmas comming. It pisses me off :anger: not christmas but people lol

I never have any free time!!! and i feel like the worst of friends i cant even see them any more. You have no idea how bad thta makes me feel... I just hope that they dont think its cause of me that they dont see me anymore. I dont even think they realize that the reason i dont hang out with them is cause i really cant, that im fucking scared of disoveying my parents that. Its a fear that was born in me. I use to get abused by my mom when i was only a kid. I use to be scared shitless of everything. I think i still am.